MarriedGodGirl

I'm really excited about my book.  It has been on my heart for so long and I'm looking forward to its introduction to society. However, I could not shake the fact that the book wasn't complete and maybe I was not ready. I spoke to another Christian writer and, as she spoke, I felt like I was about to make the same mistake she made with her first book. It is easy to get rushed, the excitement of the new book, the rush of Christmas, and all of the fun involved with bringing out a new book. I struggled back and forth on the book and then I had the dream. I love when God speaks to me in dreams. It confirms my inner struggles and sometimes provides direction when I am unsure about things. In the dream, I was talking to my brother, Wade. And Wade was talking to me, after having read the book. Basically he told me the book was not encouraging and I needed to add more!  And really for me, it was confirmation that the book isn't complete.  I have struggled with what to put i...

Last Thursday, I started feeling weird. A little unsteady on my feet. Larry had felt bad the day before so I figured he had a virus and it was trying to attach itself to me.  Friday morning I woke up and immediately, when I opened my eyes , I knew something was not right. When I opened my eyes the world moved, I blinked and it moved again. Now, me, being the stubborn person I am, got up and then the world really spun. I got up determined to  brush this off and get some coffee. You know, some mornings, all you need is coffee, and a little worship and the day is better. I walked towards the door and fell into the wall. I kept walking from wall to wall into the kitchen. I swayed like I was walking on a boat. I got into the kitchen and swayed over to the coffee cups. I am already speaking the Word.. by His stripes I am healed as I take down the coffee cup and sway to where the Keurig machine is. I put the cup down and missed the spot where it goes. I gave up on the coffee, realizi...

I recently heard about a person who is angry at God because of an affliction. I hear many people talk about being angry at God.  God gets blamed for bad churches, bad Christians, and the list goes on.  I feel impressed to share some things on my heart.  I think people have forgotten what Christianity is all about. Christianity has NOTHING to do with your denomination.  It has nothing to do with your church service or who your pastor is.  Christianity is about a relationship with you and your Savior.   I have never read in the bible that troubles will not come to you once you become a Christian. We are not dancing through the tulips. I will go so far as to say, that if you want to do great things for God -watch out! The devil will put a mark on your and chase you down the rest of your days. Do we have dominion? Absolutely! We have no reason to fear because greater is He who lives in us, that he that lives in the world. But he is not going to sit by and le...

I was recently asked to speak at a homeless shelter. I'm always excited to have a chance to share the gospel or preach the word. I was a little concerned  however, on what I would speak on. Larry and I had a brief moment in life when we were homeless. A house that we were renting went into foreclosure and one day a sheriff was at our door telling us we had to be out in 2 hours. Now, I'm blessed to have a great family and friends that lived in the same town. A good friend let us use his storage - we stayed with family so never without a roof over our heads. So that wasn't entirely the same thing..  Plus some people are homeless because they choose that. They like having no responsibility at all and they choose that way of life. Others are homeless due to job loss, drugs, mental illness, veterans with post traumatic stress disorder etc. I was in prayer one morning and I was seeking the Lord about this. And I heard the Spirit say, "why don't you speak on your strugg...

Last night at church we had a Praise and Worship service. I love love love worship nights like this.  I'm more of a worshiper so I really enjoy those songs where I can block everyone out and get on my face before God. Praise songs are fabulous but after a few of them I'm ready to get into the Holy of Holies to see what my God has for me. At one of my former churches we used to have Friday night worship services every week and it always amazed me the tangible presence of God that would be in the air. You could feel the presence of God. The Word says that God inhabits the praises of his people. (Psalm 22:3) One thing i should mention. During the time of worship I told the Lord - you know what Lord? Whatever you want to do. Not my will but yours and I'm surrendered  to you. If you want me to go this way I will go this way etc. I am yours Lord. Something happens when you truly come to that place of surrender. Anyway, last night was amazing, and what the Lord showed m...

For those of you who have been reading my blog and following along - some of this will be familiar as I spoke a little about it in my first blog. I was 24 when I found out I was pregnant.  I would love to be able to say that we were in love and it was an accident, but at that point it my life my getting pregnant was just another mistake to add to my very long list. His life however, was not a mistake. God has a plan for him just like he has a plan for each of us. My car had died, and my life was unraveling. I had no money and was in a mess! You know, abuse changes you I don't know how else to say it.  It makes you temporarily insane and it takes the healing power of God to make you whole again. I was out making my way in the world using the skill I knew best. I believe that the devil has a counterfeit life for you. Just like he has a counterfeit for everything else God has. And I was living the devil's will for my life truly believing that was all I was good for.  Not a...

For most of my life I have lived with fear. My mom struggled with fear and I'm sure all of the abuse I had as a child didn't help me any. But I was afraid of the dark, afraid of being kidnapped, afraid of snakes, etc etc When I was in elementary school I was so scared especially at a new school to get up and go the bathroom that I would hold it for an extreme period of times and sometimes not make it to the bathroom. I thought it was just normal that everyone had fear of some sort. And then in my early 20's I heard a teaching on the spirit of fear and my eyes were opened! I didn't have to live my live in fear. I went up for prayer and they got rid of that tormenting spirit. And you know what?? It is a TORMENTING devil!  And for the first time in my life I experienced a level of freedom. I learned I didn't have to live with being afraid. Not that I wasn't tempted to be afraid but it is okay to feel fear and not let it control you. It's natural if someone jum...