MarriedGodGirl

When I was a little girl, my father had, in the bathroom, one of those bible promise books. I would search and search and be frustrated that the only answer given, for all of my areas of frustration, was a bible verse. I had no understanding how much power was in the word of God. I did not  understand  that those words could bring me life and healing to my wounded soul. That the Word of God was truly promises for me! I heard a very powerful scripture recently that really resounded in me.  Heb 6:19   This hope is a strong and trustworthy anchor for our souls.  It leads us through the curtain into God’s inner sanctuary. Jesus is an anchor for my soul.  I have heard that verse and have read it before myself, but there are times when you read or hear the the word that it becomes LIFE to you. A Rhema word! An anchor is used to keep a boat from moving, from drifting away during wind or high current. It keeps the boat still. I'm not sure about you , but I need Jesus to keep my mind stil

As some of you know, I found out I was severely allergic to wheat a few months ago.  Of course, what I was not told was that once I eliminated wheat from my diet, it would make me sick whenever I was exposed to it again.  And it varies, sometimes it makes me so tired I can sleep immediately, it makes my stomach swell like I'm pregnant, I get foggy in my head, sometimes I get stomach cramps etc. - I'm sure you get the point. Had I known about that I would have gone on a wheat fest before I gave it up. Larry has a moderate allergy so it doesn't affect him immediately when he eats it and he has milder symptoms. So I started playing with some of my old recipes to see if I could make some things either without flour or with another substitute. Many of the recipes I read that are gluten free include something called Xantham Gum, but I try to stay away from those items that are not really food. So you will not see my recipes involving that item. I have successfully converted my

I'm really excited about my book.  It has been on my heart for so long and I'm looking forward to its introduction to society. However, I could not shake the fact that the book wasn't complete and maybe I was not ready. I spoke to another Christian writer and, as she spoke, I felt like I was about to make the same mistake she made with her first book. It is easy to get rushed, the excitement of the new book, the rush of Christmas, and all of the fun involved with bringing out a new book. I struggled back and forth on the book and then I had the dream. I love when God speaks to me in dreams. It confirms my inner struggles and sometimes provides direction when I am unsure about things. In the dream, I was talking to my brother, Wade. And Wade was talking to me, after having read the book. Basically he told me the book was not encouraging and I needed to add more!  And really for me, it was confirmation that the book isn't complete.  I have struggled with what to put i

Last Thursday, I started feeling weird. A little unsteady on my feet. Larry had felt bad the day before so I figured he had a virus and it was trying to attach itself to me.  Friday morning I woke up and immediately, when I opened my eyes , I knew something was not right. When I opened my eyes the world moved, I blinked and it moved again. Now, me, being the stubborn person I am, got up and then the world really spun. I got up determined to  brush this off and get some coffee. You know, some mornings, all you need is coffee, and a little worship and the day is better. I walked towards the door and fell into the wall. I kept walking from wall to wall into the kitchen. I swayed like I was walking on a boat. I got into the kitchen and swayed over to the coffee cups. I am already speaking the Word.. by His stripes I am healed as I take down the coffee cup and sway to where the Keurig machine is. I put the cup down and missed the spot where it goes. I gave up on the coffee, realizing I will

I recently heard about a person who is angry at God because of an affliction. I hear many people talk about being angry at God.  God gets blamed for bad churches, bad Christians, and the list goes on.  I feel impressed to share some things on my heart.  I think people have forgotten what Christianity is all about. Christianity has NOTHING to do with your denomination.  It has nothing to do with your church service or who your pastor is.  Christianity is about a relationship with you and your Savior.   I have never read in the bible that troubles will not come to you once you become a Christian. We are not dancing through the tulips. I will go so far as to say, that if you want to do great things for God -watch out! The devil will put a mark on your and chase you down the rest of your days. Do we have dominion? Absolutely! We have no reason to fear because greater is He who lives in us, that he that lives in the world. But he is not going to sit by and let you take his territory with

I was recently asked to speak at a homeless shelter. I'm always excited to have a chance to share the gospel or preach the word. I was a little concerned  however, on what I would speak on. Larry and I had a brief moment in life when we were homeless. A house that we were renting went into foreclosure and one day a sheriff was at our door telling us we had to be out in 2 hours. Now, I'm blessed to have a great family and friends that lived in the same town. A good friend let us use his storage - we stayed with family so never without a roof over our heads. So that wasn't entirely the same thing..  Plus some people are homeless because they choose that. They like having no responsibility at all and they choose that way of life. Others are homeless due to job loss, drugs, mental illness, veterans with post traumatic stress disorder etc. I was in prayer one morning and I was seeking the Lord about this. And I heard the Spirit say, "why don't you speak on your strugg

Last night at church we had a Praise and Worship service. I love love love worship nights like this.  I'm more of a worshiper so I really enjoy those songs where I can block everyone out and get on my face before God. Praise songs are fabulous but after a few of them I'm ready to get into the Holy of Holies to see what my God has for me. At one of my former churches we used to have Friday night worship services every week and it always amazed me the tangible presence of God that would be in the air. You could feel the presence of God. The Word says that God inhabits the praises of his people. (Psalm 22:3) One thing i should mention. During the time of worship I told the Lord - you know what Lord? Whatever you want to do. Not my will but yours and I'm surrendered  to you. If you want me to go this way I will go this way etc. I am yours Lord. Something happens when you truly come to that place of surrender. Anyway, last night was amazing, and what the Lord showed me I fel

For those of you who have been reading my blog and following along - some of this will be familiar as I spoke a little about it in my first blog. I was 24 when I found out I was pregnant.  I would love to be able to say that we were in love and it was an accident, but at that point it my life my getting pregnant was just another mistake to add to my very long list. His life however, was not a mistake. God has a plan for him just like he has a plan for each of us. My car had died, and my life was unraveling. I had no money and was in a mess! You know, abuse changes you I don't know how else to say it.  It makes you temporarily insane and it takes the healing power of God to make you whole again. I was out making my way in the world using the skill I knew best. I believe that the devil has a counterfeit life for you. Just like he has a counterfeit for everything else God has. And I was living the devil's will for my life truly believing that was all I was good for.  Not a very

For most of my life I have lived with fear. My mom struggled with fear and I'm sure all of the abuse I had as a child didn't help me any. But I was afraid of the dark, afraid of being kidnapped, afraid of snakes, etc etc When I was in elementary school I was so scared especially at a new school to get up and go the bathroom that I would hold it for an extreme period of times and sometimes not make it to the bathroom. I thought it was just normal that everyone had fear of some sort. And then in my early 20's I heard a teaching on the spirit of fear and my eyes were opened! I didn't have to live my live in fear. I went up for prayer and they got rid of that tormenting spirit. And you know what?? It is a TORMENTING devil!  And for the first time in my life I experienced a level of freedom. I learned I didn't have to live with being afraid. Not that I wasn't tempted to be afraid but it is okay to feel fear and not let it control you. It's natural if someone jum

Today started a new phase in my marriage as Larry drove back to live in Florida without me. And even though it is temporary I find myself living alone in Atlanta tonight. The place I hate and do not want to be! Funny how God works sometimes. Who knows, maybe after this season is over I will have a love for my new home that comes out of a newness from God. Larry and I are not separating or having any marital problems but his nanny is moving to heaven and needs full time care. His mom and uncle have been the primary care takers but both were exhausted and after our last visit there Larry and I both felt like he was to be with them to help.  So he transferred back to Publix in Florida and will be there for the next 2-3 months. Hopefully not much longer but I know God has a plan in this. I took his moving really hard up until today. That is what I wanted to write to you about. I always want to be transparent. No one has ever arrived and Christianity is always about learning and growing i

It's been awhile since I last blogged.. in fact, I had to go back and read my last blog to figure out where to start today. What I don't want to do is a fake blog. My life is not perfect, I'm not perfect, I'm nowhere near ready to say I've arrived. And I don't want to just post when life is wonderful. Since I last blogged my grandfather moved to heaven.  Honestly, I've been with a few family members when they moved to heaven and by far this was the most peaceful I've ever experienced, My grandfather was 93 years old. And there wasn't anything wrong with him; he just decided he was done. He started refusing food and the process moved on from there. He ended up going to sleep and from there made the transfer to heaven. I did learn a fun fact about my grandfather. We were having a discussion about dying and I remarked as I have for years that I'm going in the rapture. And my grandmother looked at me and said, "that is what your grandfather alwa